Who touched me ?. He asked ? .... Yes,I only did that. I admitted that with reistance. He did not get angry for stealing his power rather he consoled me. He made me to say publicly my personal Secret problems which I was reluctant to say in the beginning. Hm,,,. Now I know, Why he made me to say publicly all that my private matter which I never wanted other men to know. Read my full story of my humiliation and annihilation of my ego . Read at www.kallelivilayil.blogspot.com
Jesus asked the huge crowd thronged around him. Who touched me ? – A question which even the disciples considered as a ridiculous question?. In a such mad rush, many would have touched him, pushed him. Who knows who are those people who touched him. Who can be pointed out ?. But he asked “ Who touched me ?.”
Background. : [I am a middle aged woman suffering from gynaecological disorder for 12 years. I am abashed and frustrated with my problem and met so many doctors’ in vain and now I am ashamed to tell anyone further. I heard about Jesus and his healing abilities and I was thinking to approach him, but I was ashamed to tell my problem as he was always surrounded by lots of men. I decided on a plan which nobody in the world has attempted so far. To touch his robes when he was passing my area without anybody’s knowledge. I saw Jesus with so many men around and so many sick people crying for his attention. I saw everyone shouting and telling their problems and I am ashamed to tell a man in public about my disease. But then I thought if his words can cure, if his fingers have the power, then even his robes may also have the power. Let me touch secretly so that no one will know including Jesus. After I am cured, I will go and tell Jesus secretly when he is alone. ]
In a split of a second, it happened. I touched his robes and I felt as if electricity was passing through my body. I was shivering and I realised that the disease which no physician of that time could heal has disappeared. I could not believe that something which has become part and parcel of my personality for last 12 years is no more there and I felt something is missing. I was shocked and my body was full of Goosebumps.
Nobody knew what had happened and I was totally in a state of breathlessness and unable to speak. Suddenly I saw Jesus turning back and looking at me.No he is not looking at me, he is looking at someone in my side. Thank GOD, even he is not aware of my healing, I was bit relaxed as my plan worked. Then suddenly he asked openly to the crowd ‘ Who touched me ?’. All people including the disciples along with him considered this as a foolish question. People wondered what to say. But I knew he was asking for me. Did I do something wrong and is it because of that he is asking in front of all ?. Did I make him impure with my disease. Why is he asking ?, Is it because he could not identify who has taken the power from him and he wanted the power back. Did I disgrace to him ? I wondered…
O, My GOD, If I admit,. I am going to be punished for stealing. I was frightened. Not only my secrets would be made public in front of all men, but my disease will be given back to me and I will be punished for stealing. I did a terrible mistake, which nobody in the history has done with jesus and I curse myself for my secret beliefs.
I decided to admit and confess to him. Finally I did that. Against all my expectations, He did not get angry rather , he praised me. Now I realise, Why he made me to say all this publicly which I never wanted. If He had not called me nobody would have noticed except me and at a later date I myself might have doubted how I was healed. I might have doubted the power of his robes. I might be tempted to believe that it could have happened naturally and not by the power of GOD.By making me admitting publicly HE made me sure that it was the divine power that healed me and my belief in him was strengthened. By making me well , my shyness in admitting the miracle happened to me has been removed by this act. This way I will keep spreading the message without any shyness to anyone who asks about my past and how it happened. I still think, If I was not asked by him and not admitted the act, I might have carried the fear of not telling the truth to master. The fear of what way the master will react if master comes to know the truth later.But Today I will shout and say My GOD had cured my disease and What I am today is Because of him.I am no not ashamed of my earlier disease and telling anout that. I tell you ' do not be ashamed of your problems, Reach out to touch him, do not wait for him to touch you. Be a conductor who can communicate and carry the power to you. Remove all the resistance and hurdles. If you reduce the resistance, you experience the full. Connect with him and you can watch your blocks vanish with your problems.
Jesus asked the huge crowd thronged around him. Who touched me ? – A question which even the disciples considered as a ridiculous question?. In a such mad rush, many would have touched him, pushed him. Who knows who are those people who touched him. Who can be pointed out ?. But he asked “ Who touched me ?.”
Background. : [I am a middle aged woman suffering from gynaecological disorder for 12 years. I am abashed and frustrated with my problem and met so many doctors’ in vain and now I am ashamed to tell anyone further. I heard about Jesus and his healing abilities and I was thinking to approach him, but I was ashamed to tell my problem as he was always surrounded by lots of men. I decided on a plan which nobody in the world has attempted so far. To touch his robes when he was passing my area without anybody’s knowledge. I saw Jesus with so many men around and so many sick people crying for his attention. I saw everyone shouting and telling their problems and I am ashamed to tell a man in public about my disease. But then I thought if his words can cure, if his fingers have the power, then even his robes may also have the power. Let me touch secretly so that no one will know including Jesus. After I am cured, I will go and tell Jesus secretly when he is alone. ]
In a split of a second, it happened. I touched his robes and I felt as if electricity was passing through my body. I was shivering and I realised that the disease which no physician of that time could heal has disappeared. I could not believe that something which has become part and parcel of my personality for last 12 years is no more there and I felt something is missing. I was shocked and my body was full of Goosebumps.
Nobody knew what had happened and I was totally in a state of breathlessness and unable to speak. Suddenly I saw Jesus turning back and looking at me.No he is not looking at me, he is looking at someone in my side. Thank GOD, even he is not aware of my healing, I was bit relaxed as my plan worked. Then suddenly he asked openly to the crowd ‘ Who touched me ?’. All people including the disciples along with him considered this as a foolish question. People wondered what to say. But I knew he was asking for me. Did I do something wrong and is it because of that he is asking in front of all ?. Did I make him impure with my disease. Why is he asking ?, Is it because he could not identify who has taken the power from him and he wanted the power back. Did I disgrace to him ? I wondered…
O, My GOD, If I admit,. I am going to be punished for stealing. I was frightened. Not only my secrets would be made public in front of all men, but my disease will be given back to me and I will be punished for stealing. I did a terrible mistake, which nobody in the history has done with jesus and I curse myself for my secret beliefs.
I decided to admit and confess to him. Finally I did that. Against all my expectations, He did not get angry rather , he praised me. Now I realise, Why he made me to say all this publicly which I never wanted. If He had not called me nobody would have noticed except me and at a later date I myself might have doubted how I was healed. I might have doubted the power of his robes. I might be tempted to believe that it could have happened naturally and not by the power of GOD.By making me admitting publicly HE made me sure that it was the divine power that healed me and my belief in him was strengthened. By making me well , my shyness in admitting the miracle happened to me has been removed by this act. This way I will keep spreading the message without any shyness to anyone who asks about my past and how it happened. I still think, If I was not asked by him and not admitted the act, I might have carried the fear of not telling the truth to master. The fear of what way the master will react if master comes to know the truth later.But Today I will shout and say My GOD had cured my disease and What I am today is Because of him.I am no not ashamed of my earlier disease and telling anout that. I tell you ' do not be ashamed of your problems, Reach out to touch him, do not wait for him to touch you. Be a conductor who can communicate and carry the power to you. Remove all the resistance and hurdles. If you reduce the resistance, you experience the full. Connect with him and you can watch your blocks vanish with your problems.
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